what the actual eft did i just do holy shit
you will be okay. i promise. i promise,=. i promise.
Thank you so much, I needed that. I hope everything is going great for you!! I love your blog.
I miss home. I miss mom yelling at me to get out of bed and come down for chai rotli even though school already started. I miss bc calculus with jordan and our endless nights at starbucks. i miss maa’s voice and bapuji’s nicotine and nanapapa’s dentures. i miss diya’s stupid room and her stupid beautiful eyes and her ability to make me feel like the best sister in the world for a reason I will never understand. i miss bhyjan’s constant assurances that i couldn’t get any more annoying and i miss kat and her mom and misty and laughing for hours about cat videos. i miss them teaching me sex terms and ridding me of my innocence. i miss komal and her stupid obsession with tv actors and mahek’s giant ass. i miss sofia appa’s hugs and mr. adcox. i miss ms. bernard yelling at me and giving me detention slips and i miss you, so much more than i ever thought i would. i sound crazy and emotional but honestly for once, I’m letting myself admit that there’s something missing in my life. I don’t know what it is, but I don’t think i’ll understand it for a while. All I know is that I’m ready to go home and talk politics with my dad for hours and argue about immigration policy. I’m ready to go home and remind myself of what kind of family i’m blessed to have.
is this what crying feels like